my journal is now friends only..

1. Comment and I will reply with something I really like about you.
2. I will then tell what song[s] remind me of you.
3. Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.
4. Last, I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
5. Put this in your journal.

SPILL CANVAS LYRICS

"So Much"

How does it feel to know you're everything I need
The butterflies in my stomach
They could bring me to my knees
How does it feel to know you're everything I want
I've got a hard time saying this
So I'll sing it in a song

Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt
When we become one
When we become one
When we become one
When we become one

How does it feel
How does it feel when we get locked into a stare?
Please don't come looking for me
When I get lost in the mess of your hair
How do you feel when everything you've known
Gets thrown aside
Never fear, my dear, 'cause we have nothing left to hide

Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt

Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
Just know that I'm right next to you
Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
Just know that I won't let you down

Well, I'm ready
Well, I'm ready
I am ready
To run away with you
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
To run away with me

Pack your things we can leave today
Pack your things we can leave today
Say our goodbyes and get on the train
Say goodbye
Just you and I in the sweet unknown
We can just call each other our home

If I had to choose a way to die
It'd be with you
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your face
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your cherub face

How does it feel?

i believe we write our own stories and each time we think we know the end, we don't. perhaps luck exsists somewhere between the world of planning, of chance and in the peace that comes from knowing that you just can't know it all. life's funny that way... once you let go of the wheel, you might end up right where you belong --little black book

hi there . i am just sitting here watching ER, just got home from school a lil bit ago.

i never sleep anymore, so i about to here in a bit before my night class @ 6

i never sleep, but last night i didnt care, i was at josh's ti'll like 330, and i wouldnt usually stay out that late, especially coming home to my dad, but i didnt get off work ti'll midnight, so it sucks. and we dont work together anymore, so i want to see him as much as i can when i do see him. you know?
i'm crazy about this guy

school is going fine, with the exception of the sleepiness of course. otherwise, looks like its gonna be a lil tough with anatomy again and now geography. but i'll make it alright.

okidoke, gonna take a nap ... cyou

I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to chose where we come from, we can still chose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them -The Perks of Being a Wallflower

The hardest part about growing up is letting go of what you were used to, and moving on with something you're not.

Life is about change, sometimes it's painful, sometimes it's beautiful, but most of the time it's both - Smallville

we must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned so as to have the life that is waitng for us - Joseph Campbell

Because in a sense, it's the coming back, the return which gives meaning to the going forth. We really don't know where we've been until we've come back to where we were. Only, where we were may not be as it was because of who we've become. Which is, after all, why we left

...he makes me so happy

:grin:

hmp, just called joosshh and he was watching a movie and said he'd call back.. eh
and called AJ and cant get ahold of her ; ( i wanna talk to one of those two. lol ohwell, i'll sit here and be bored as per usual...

things are great still.. christmas was good
i think me and my family are gonna kill each other if we hang out anymore though, but me and my sis always get like that when we spend too much time together. heh
took some cute pics, i'll get em when my brother does his pics.

me and josh talk everyday.. it was funny, last night he was like "i miss getting to see you everyday" (and we had just seen each other the night before) i was like, "so basically you mean, today?" heh, he was like "shut up" it was cute, but i felt the exact same way.
i told my bro and sis about him. my brother needless to say wasnt happy.. didnt think he sounded like a good guy and that he was too old. it pissed me off a lil, only cause when i said josh had like 10 tatoos, he automatically was like "he's a winner'.. wow. but i cant lie and say that a few months back i wouldnt have stereotyped the same way, so for that.. damn me for being that type of person. cause, i dont like josh for his tatoos or lack of if that were the case, ya know.
just stuff that makes me think.

eh, i want him to call me
i am going to try and go see him after me and my family go out to eat tomorrow night. he closes so i'll go up there and he'll take his break so i can talk to him and say bye and all :(
i know, i know.. we havent even been "whatever" for but two weeks, but usually the start of the relationship is when youre crazy about each other, so not seeing him for two weeks is gonna suck

aw.. talking to gary online. we rarely talk. i mean he has a girlfriend, is pretty much in his own life.. which is expected, i just miss what we had sometimes. we've talked like twice the last two months, didnt think he even cared i was coming.
but,
gcoke (11:59:58 PM): the only reason i'm still here is cause you're coming, otherwise i'd be back in College Station
that made me feel good. i was a lil bummed that i dont ever talk to him and jared.

i am indeed excited .. this time the day after tomorrow, in texas i shall be :)

I'm just... happy. I've never felt that before. I'm just exactly where I want to be. -eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

::yawn::

merry christmas!

and, goodnight.

he says that he has never been this happy before, and that everyone at works says the same thing about him
i told him i was really happy too, but also about being scared b/c i am so used to things being shitty.. that i am waiting for the point where things take the down spiral.. he said that wasnt going to happen.
i made some comment about him yelling ever and that if he did that i cry when people yell.. and i said dont make me cry ok? and he goes, "i wont" and i said "promise" he's like "eh, thats not something i can say because stuff happens.. but, i will do everything in my power not to give you reason to ever cry" i said that was good enough. then we were talking about me leaving again, and i said i was worried about him not wanting to be w/me when i got back, and he goes "that wont happen. and that i can promise you" it makes me sad he'll have no real home at christmas, like he has his new place, but nothing in it yet.. and she took everything. but he is going to one of his best friends on xmas. so its okay i guess.
beth is a whore. enough said.
josh doesnt want me to go to school in wilmington, cause we were talking about my usual "running away" issue and he said he wouldnt know what to do if i up and ran away. and he said that i had to promise not to. i said that i can, until the fall when i go to wilmington.. heh, guess i forgot to mention that to him. needless to say he is not in agreement with that choice, and would rather me go to ECU. at least it sounds like he plans on sticking around a while, since he obviously wants me to.
i swear i learn so much about him everyday. he is so great.

its christmas eve ;)
i work like 130-6

and i will be home in 4 days.
merry christmas!